It's hard to move on from someone you love, especially when they still love you. When someone says I love you, and you believe them and you say it back, is it just words? Or do they mean something to you? They meant something to me. But apparently he didn' feel the same. He said he would love me forevr and always, then broke up with me. He had me put all my trust into him and promised me he would never leave, then he did. My life was nothing until he came, and now that he's gone he's nothing at all. I'm hurt and upset, and I never knew how much love could hurt, until now. I feel like my hole heart was ripped out of my chest stomped into the ground with heels a million times, left on the side walk of Manhattan letting strangers walk all over it over and over all day long, and then put into a blender then handed back to me. It's not heart break anymore, it's gotten worse then that, I'm more depressed now. I can't feel anything, my bodies numb, my mind is blank, and I feel like crying all the time. I just want to tell him that I will always love him, and he would say it back because he says he still loves me, but apparently love and trust isn't enough aymore. Apparenly what I want and feel, no matter what I say or how I act, it's never going to be back the way it was. Now I know that if I don't move on from him that I will most likely die alone, and soon. I need him to be with me always, I wish he hadn't lied to me. I wish that I didn't say what I said. I wish he never drove off. And I wish I didn't walk away. I wish that when he said, "I love you Marie." That he meant it. But now I know, you can never have what you wished for.
~Marie